不是滋味

Everyday checking her blog is a routine for me. even though i always be upset after reading her words, i still can't help doing it everyday. it's kind of affliction.

在她的文章裡，總是可以看到你的身影。好像我們共同保有一個人的心、一起欣賞他的某個特質─應該是天真狂妄吧。她眼中的你，跟我所看到的有何不同呢？我期望是有不同的。

In fact, i really appreciate her sensitive,tender, simple mind and also admire her ardor for writing . In a word, we don't know each other, but i like her since her personality is exactly what i admire.

因此我可以了解，同時沒有權利去說什麼。不是生氣、不是不高興，只是一種複雜的心情就這樣蔓延開來。

I don't wanna share you with anyone! But it's not anyone's faults making this situation; if have to blame someone, that's me.

只是看的時候還是會淡淡的覺得(也許是一種任性)，不是滋味。